I have been working at the same place almost 18 years and in all that time I was never so close to losing control as I was yesterday. This anger has been growing for some time and nothing I tried seemed to squelch the fumes building in me about all the senseless changes and belittling new policies heaped on us daily.
So writes Linda Ritter, in a post worth reading for other reasons, but I will focus on her anger. At my most recent job, I stated that a situation made me feel angrier than I had ever been before in my life. I mentioned this because I thought it was remarkable...it seems as if something that makes you madder than you've ever been in 39 years is worthy of mention.
My supervisor apparently thought it was remarkable too because she kept mentioning it while she was firing me. I even asked, "Are you firing me because I'm angry?" Well, no, she said, but it's very concerning. It came up repeatedly.
I should stress that I stated that I felt angry. I did not punch a wall, punch a person, or kick down a row of chairs. I didn't even raise my voice.
Given the repeated references to this anger, it seemed extremely troubling to her. I wondered why at the time, and I wondered about it again when I read Ritter's post. Is it alarming when pillow-fluffing nurses state that they are absolutely furious? More so than if I qua regular person state the same thing?
I'm curious after reading Ritter's post about whether this rage is more common than anyone talks about: if so, then the surprise element would not be there. Is it uncool or somehow not OK for nurses to be seriously mad?